Sooo We’re Taking a Break 👐🏽✨

If you read my last newsletter then you know why and how we’ve ended up here.

I think for the last two years I’ve continued to bite off more than I can chew in so many different ways.

I desire to be this amazing writer with her ducks in a row, a writing routine, endless inspiration, and never missing a beat.

In trying to be the best at everything… I’ve failed at one thing: taking care of myself.

I often announce breaks and usually state when I’ll be back. This time? I actually do not know. I never want my writing and sending out posts and doing what I love to feel like just another chore on my endless list of to dos. That’s what it’s feeling like at this current moment.

When that happens? It’s an immediate signal to me that I need to take a step back. I’ve said in a few recent posts I’d been suffering from burn out. I kept trying to push through it (not wanting to let my readers down)… but at this current moment… pushing through is causing my mental health to decline at a rapid rate.

I want to love writing again… and right now I don’t love it. Right now? I don’t love much that I do on a daily besides go to bed if I’m being 100% honest.

That productivity culture that I hate so much and that I preach about… I’ve been subconsciously adapting that mindset. Trying to fill every second of my life with something productive because for whatever reason I feel as if I haven’t been worthy of resting and taking breaks from certain things. I can’t take a break from my job, I can’t take a break from motherhood, so it’s a must that I take a break from something that I can take a break from.

With that being said, I have to get my spark back. But I can only do that by taking care of myself mental and physical health. And allowing myself the space to deal with the underlying mental health issues I already have on top of my very hectic life. Finding my flow again, finding a new routine, and finding the time to fit my hobbies into the cracks and crevices of it all.

So I will be back in your inboxes and on the Substack time line… at some point. And I hope that when I do.. you’ll still be here. 💕✌🏽